Blech

I have been very depressed this week. Depression is such a dark and lonely place to be. It hit me like a ton of bricks, although, thank goodness, it seems to be lifting somewhat tonight. I have been a bit overwhelmed with juggling school, home life, ministry and tackling our France "to do" list. When I have difficulty getting the "me" time, introvert that I am, life can quickly spiral out of control.

And to top it off, when I feel like this, I feel guilty. I feel so self centered and absorbed. I feel so ungrateful. Little things just seem to irritate me. The things that occasionally come out of my mouth alarm me. It's difficult to live into the fullness of Christ. Times like these make me think of Paul in Romans 7:15, "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do, but what I hate I do."

I think that's about all I have to say today. Thanks be to God-through Jesus Christ our Lord.